Beautifully Unique : I Dream....

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

I Dream....

Blogging Friends.... This was taken from my private Word document journal!! I wrote it last week after a minor mood swing infused pity party. Due to my unobtainable, broken, shattered lifelong dream of becoming an author. Honestly? Sometimes Reality still hurts like hell. This is the ending, my perspective gleaned through emotional/mental growing pains. Yes, I did say that dreams suck!! Aloud. To my Mom. But I did not mean it. Oh!! And I recovered in true Drama Queen fashion!! I immediately rebounded with four new fictional children's book ideas!! Four!! Meanwhile, I have been clinging tight to these words like some toddler with her Teddy bear.... Love you later.

I said that dreams suck--as strong, negative emotions pulsed through me--and, literally speaking, they do. Personally, dreams can suck away my happiness like some mosquito does with human blood. Or so it feels. I never struggled with these issues until I dared to dream. Oh, sometimes I wish I hadn't. But then again. Sans this lifelong dream, I would not be writing monthly fictional books. I know that. Why must dreams always be cosmic, anyway? Why?! What is so wrong with dreams being minuscule?! Because. I dream.... Of boldly stepping out of the children's book genre to which I find myself blissfully stuck in. With one story. I dream.... Of writing an Independence Day-themed children's book come July, despite having very few ideas for it yet. I dream.... Of writing twelve books throughout 2014!!

7 comments:

M said...: okay my friend....time to stop dreaming and get to writing....ha! yes that was a verbal spanking,, hugs M; May 28, 2014 at 2:14 AM
Unknown said...: What are we if we have no dreams to follow? Have a wonderful Wednesday.
Best wishes Molly; May 28, 2014 at 2:17 AM
Mary Lou said...: M....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"okay my friend....time to stop dreaming and get to writing....ha! yes that was a verbal spanking!" Ouch, and I felt it, too!! "Time to stop dreaming and get to writing...." I love that!! Thanks, Friend!! ;op; May 28, 2014 at 6:04 AM
Mary Lou said...: Molly....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"What are we if we have no dreams to follow?" Valid point!! Thanks, Friend.... ;op; May 28, 2014 at 6:06 AM
Mary Lou said...: M....
PS. I do, in fact, write nearly every single day!! And come tomorrow? I have my tenth fictional book to begin work on!! Happy. Me!! "Time to stop dreaming and get to writing...." ;op; May 28, 2014 at 6:13 AM
Sketching with Dogs said...: Life is always better if you have a dream, it's what keeps us going.
Good luck with your children's book Raelyn.
Lynne x; May 28, 2014 at 11:23 AM
Mary Lou said...: Lynne....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"Life is always better if you have a dream, it's what keeps us going. Good luck with your children's book." Thanks, Friend.... ;op; May 28, 2014 at 12:00 PM

"It's A... Terrible Privilege"

{Taken from "The Avengers"}
Tony Stark: You know, I've got a cluster of shrapnel, trying every second to crawl its way into my heart.
[Stark points at the mini-arc reactor in his chest]
Tony Stark: This stops it. This little circle of light. It's part of me now, not just armor. It's a... terrible privilege.
Bruce Banner: But you can control it.
Tony Stark: Because I learned how.
Bruce Banner: It's different.
[Banner tries to read the computer screen, but Stark slides the data aside with his finger so the two can see face-to-face]
Tony Stark: Hey, I've read all about your accident. That much gamma exposure should have killed you.
Bruce Banner: So you're saying that the Hulk... the other guy... saved my life? That's nice. It's a nice sentiment. Save it for... what?
Tony Stark: I guess we'll find out.
[Banner and Stark get back to work at their respective computers]
Bruce Banner: You might not enjoy that.
Tony Stark: You just might.

Raelyn:

I am a 31-year old American woman. I was born with multiple birth defects. Craniosynostosis. {I did not have any soft spots.} Congenital diaphragmatic hernia. {I had a hole in my diaphragm.} And Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome. {I had an irregular, rapid heartbeat.} All three birth defects have been surgically repaired!! I live with "developmental delays". Learning disabilities, if you will. Such as--unfortunately--premature short-term memory loss. Oh, and I have attention deficit disorder, as well!! I do not like to evade such an issue as my learning disabilities. No. It hurts sometimes to be different. I was also diagnosed with a condition called folliculitis decalvans. {I am more than likely going to lose my hair, go bald, and unveil twain Frankenstein-like surgically-created craniosynostosis scars. Permanently.} But God is gradually teaching me that we are all, as my phrase goes, Beautifully Unique!!