Monday, November 25, 2013

Five "Books"

Blogging Friends.... Warning. This is yet another self-serving "therapy session". {Don't worry. I am not suffering from any minor mood swing-infused pity parties!! Yet. Oddly enough, I nearly always suffer from mood swings after writing "therapy sessions". This could be interesting!!} So, come. Sit. Have a cup of tea, coffee, soda, wine, or just plain water. Read on as God gradually works through my life....

Strange. This Blog post was started on Wednesday. But. After a couple breaks from writing it, plus at least three approaches, I behold. Five freakin' days later. This Blog post!! 

"Minuscule is good!

Trust me, it’s much better than thinking everything you do is important and meaningful. That is not good.” --Robert Downey Jr.

Question. Do you make New Year's Resolutions?

This may appear to be a rather odd query. But is it? Really? 2013 is swiftly drawing a close, and most of us have probably either broken or forgotten our New Year's Resolutions by now!! Correct? Well, this is going to sound crazy--which I am--but I don't make New Year's Resolutions. Not anymore. God makes New Year's Resolutions for me. In 2012, it was this. Accept yourself--learning disabilities and all. This was a challenge which I ignored, as per usual. Until Friday, May 4th. When we watched "The Avengers" in a local movie theater. When my life was mysteriously and profoundly impacted by Tony Stark/Iron Man. When four words left Robert Downey Jr.'s lips, and changed me forever. "It's a... terrible privilege.". See. Several years ago, in the year 2001, I stopped living. I gave up. And I quit. I was seventeen years old {17!!} when I began creating my pity parties. Then. Shortly thereafter, I was eighteen, and I'd just "graduated" from Home School. If "ignorance is bliss", as that phrase goes, then up until age eighteen, I did not see my learning disabilities. I had a carefree, happy childhood. And I could achieve anything. My dreams--which were constantly changing--would occur. Because "the sky was the limit", as that phrase goes. Then Reality attacked me like some powerful military ambush. Yes, at the tender age of eighteen. See, Reality told me that I have "developmental delays". True. For this is what we were told by doctors. I have "developmental delays". Translation? I live with learning disabilities. Reality told me that "the sky is not the limit, because there are a lot of things in this life which I can't do. True again. So I stopped living. I gave up. And I quit. My life then felt hopeless, pointless, plus meaningless. I stopped living for well over ten years. Most of my twenties were completely wasted to pity parties. Completely wasted. Then I was--in my words--"touched by a schmuck". Named Tony Stark. It is sort of like being touched by an angel, only he hasn't a halo and wings. For Tony Stark is no saint!! But, honestly? After being "touched by a schmuck" on Friday, May 4th, 2012, my life has not been the same. And it never will be. Why? Because. For the first time--although I still suffer from minor mood swing-infused pity parties which are beyond my control, and I still struggle with being different--I started living again. Truly living. I have reached out to Moms {Plus one Dad!!} who brought children into this world either born with craniosynostosis or congenital diaphragmatic hernia, my birth defects. Never both. Because. I. Am. A. Freak!! I have--with my gracious Blogging Friend, Robyn's permission--"featured" twain C.D.H. TinySuperheroes, plus one "Cranio" kid on Beautifully Unique. I am part of two different Online Blogging communities. C.D.H. . And Blogville. I created "Minuscule is good!" to feature monthly Writing Projects. Oh, yes. And I have written five "books" within one year's time!! Yes, five. Despite not being a published author. I wrote my Life Story. Which still needs some "tinkering"!! I wrote "Monkeys in the Woods". Which was inspired by my niece, Little Munchkin!! I wrote a Breast Cancer-themed children's story. "Bubbles the Bubblegum Bunny". I wrote an odd yet imaginative Thanksgiving-themed children's story. Which, was basically rewritten from one of my poems!! And. Soon-to-be-revealed on "Minuscule is good!". I rewrote a Christmas-themed children's story!! Five "books". Wow. These are stories. Never sold on any Barnes & Noble shelf. But they are also "books". A dear friend, "S", advised me to "redirect my energy and goals". You know what? I intend to--Lord willing!!--write twelve "books" in the year 2014!! You know, I think I can obtain that goal!! And I am already writing January's and February's "books" within my crazy head!! Robert Downey Jr. was correct. Minuscule is good!! Writing twelve "books" throughout the year 2014? That is living life while I am alive. I'm no quitter. I am a fighter. I'm a survivor. And I possess one long surgically-created C.D.H. scar across my abdomen as living proof. "It's a... terrible privilege.". Truly.     

So. Do you make New Year's Resolutions?

Break them? Or forget you ever even made any New Year's Resolutions? Well. This was God's 2013 New Year's Resolution for me. Find contentment where you are. True contentment. Smile more. Laugh more. For joy and happiness is a choice!! I am working on it.

God's 2014 New Year's Resolution for me? We shall have to wait and see....

Have a happy Thanksgiving!! Dear Blogging Friends. I am thankful for you and your encouraging comments!!

12 comments:

Tweedles -- that's me said...

I came to also wish you a wonderful Thanksgiving
love
tweedles

Raelyn said...

Tweedles....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
Well!! Happy Thanksgiving in return!! ;op

Molly The Wally said...

No New Years resolutions here as we feel there is no point just because it is a new year. Hope all your preparations for Thanksgiving are going well. Have a terrific Tuesday.
Best wishes Molly

Dip-Dip and the Bridge said...

I am so pleased you have so many projects on the go (that will keep you out of mischief :)You are a survivor and have all my admiration!
Lynne x

Raelyn said...

Molly....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"No New Year's resolutions here as we feel there is no point just because it is a new year.". you are not alone with this. If memory serves me, a dear friend does not believe in making New Year's Resolutions just to break them!! ;)
"Hope all your preparations for Thanksgiving are going well.". We're almost ready!! ;op

Raelyn said...

Lynne....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"I am so pleased you have so many projects on the go (that will keep you out of mischief)". Crack. Me. Up!! ;-D
Maybe I need Writing Projects to keep my crazy head out of trouble, and fight {Because I cannot avoid them} mood swings. Perhaps Writing Projects give me something to excitedly anticipate every month!! I will take it!! ;)
"You are a survivor and have all my admiration!". You're sweet, Friend!! ;op

margeaux said...

have a terrific Thanksgiving and give Rose a special helping of turkey. for you.... sweet treats for a sweet princess. hugs M

Raelyn said...

M....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
Have a terrific Thanksgiving, yourself!! I shall give Rose some turkey!! I always "sneak" her some!! ;op


Deidre said...

I don't make new year's resolutions. I feel like birthday resolutions are much more suitable for me, but even so they're not so much resolutions as you know, goals.

Raelyn said...

Deidre....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"I don't make new year's resolutions. I feel like birthday resolutions are much more suitable for me, but even so they're not so much resolutions as you know, goals.". I like that!! "Birthday Resolutions"!! I really like that!! And my birthday, ironically, happens to be in January!! Hee, hee, hee.... ;op

Team Beaglebratz said...

Mom Kim here - just had to stop by, thought - at least to wish you and Rose a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
But will comment a bit too - those pity parties you talk about - I have them off and on throughout the year altho they seem to take up less and less time. Being almost 57, I really don't want to waste any more time than absolutely have to on them - I have other things I would rather do. As for New Years resolutions - I gave up on them a LONG time ago - like you said - God makes them for me - just wish it was so easy to accept what He decides for me. What He doesn't decide for me then my vision problems play in to it. One New Years resolution I would really like to at least constructiveely work on (as long as my vision goes along with it and God too) be around more often in Blogville - post more and comment more. Sometimes work interferes too - like now. Gotta go.
Mom Kim

Raelyn said...

Mom Kim....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
Happy Thanksgiving in return!! ;)
I can't but agree that pity parties hurt emotionally, and are a complete waste of time!! I would definitely never recommend them!! However. For me, pity parties are emotional/mental growth, as crazy as that sounds. They help me move forward in life!! ;op