Five "Books"

Blogging Friends.... Warning. This is yet another self-serving "therapy session". {Don't worry. I am not suffering from any minor mood swing-infused pity parties!! Yet. Oddly enough, I nearly always suffer from mood swings after writing "therapy sessions". This could be interesting!!} So, come. Sit. Have a cup of tea, coffee, soda, wine, or just plain water. Read on as God gradually works through my life....

Strange. This Blog post was started on Wednesday. But. After a couple breaks from writing it, plus at least three approaches, I behold. Five freakin' days later. This Blog post!! 

"Minuscule is good!

Trust me, it’s much better than thinking everything you do is important and meaningful. That is not good.” --Robert Downey Jr.

Question. Do you make New Year's Resolutions?

This may appear to be a rather odd query. But is it? Really? 2013 is swiftly drawing a close, and most of us have probably either broken or forgotten our New Year's Resolutions by now!! Correct? Well, this is going to sound crazy--which I am--but I don't make New Year's Resolutions. Not anymore. God makes New Year's Resolutions for me. In 2012, it was this. Accept yourself--learning disabilities and all. This was a challenge which I ignored, as per usual. Until Friday, May 4th. When we watched "The Avengers" in a local movie theater. When my life was mysteriously and profoundly impacted by Tony Stark/Iron Man. When four words left Robert Downey Jr.'s lips, and changed me forever. "It's a... terrible privilege.". See. Several years ago, in the year 2001, I stopped living. I gave up. And I quit. I was seventeen years old {17!!} when I began creating my pity parties. Then. Shortly thereafter, I was eighteen, and I'd just "graduated" from Home School. If "ignorance is bliss", as that phrase goes, then up until age eighteen, I did not see my learning disabilities. I had a carefree, happy childhood. And I could achieve anything. My dreams--which were constantly changing--would occur. Because "the sky was the limit", as that phrase goes. Then Reality attacked me like some powerful military ambush. Yes, at the tender age of eighteen. See, Reality told me that I have "developmental delays". True. For this is what we were told by doctors. I have "developmental delays". Translation? I live with learning disabilities. Reality told me that "the sky is not the limit, because there are a lot of things in this life which I can't do. True again. So I stopped living. I gave up. And I quit. My life then felt hopeless, pointless, plus meaningless. I stopped living for well over ten years. Most of my twenties were completely wasted to pity parties. Completely wasted. Then I was--in my words--"touched by a schmuck". Named Tony Stark. It is sort of like being touched by an angel, only he hasn't a halo and wings. For Tony Stark is no saint!! But, honestly? After being "touched by a schmuck" on Friday, May 4th, 2012, my life has not been the same. And it never will be. Why? Because. For the first time--although I still suffer from minor mood swing-infused pity parties which are beyond my control, and I still struggle with being different--I started living again. Truly living. I have reached out to Moms {Plus one Dad!!} who brought children into this world either born with craniosynostosis or congenital diaphragmatic hernia, my birth defects. Never both. Because. I. Am. A. Freak!! I have--with my gracious Blogging Friend, Robyn's permission--"featured" twain C.D.H. TinySuperheroes, plus one "Cranio" kid on Beautifully Unique. I am part of two different Online Blogging communities. C.D.H. . And Blogville. I created "Minuscule is good!" to feature monthly Writing Projects. Oh, yes. And I have written five "books" within one year's time!! Yes, five. Despite not being a published author. I wrote my Life Story. Which still needs some "tinkering"!! I wrote "Monkeys in the Woods". Which was inspired by my niece, Little Munchkin!! I wrote a Breast Cancer-themed children's story. "Bubbles the Bubblegum Bunny". I wrote an odd yet imaginative Thanksgiving-themed children's story. Which, was basically rewritten from one of my poems!! And. Soon-to-be-revealed on "Minuscule is good!". I rewrote a Christmas-themed children's story!! Five "books". Wow. These are stories. Never sold on any Barnes & Noble shelf. But they are also "books". A dear friend, "S", advised me to "redirect my energy and goals". You know what? I intend to--Lord willing!!--write twelve "books" in the year 2014!! You know, I think I can obtain that goal!! And I am already writing January's and February's "books" within my crazy head!! Robert Downey Jr. was correct. Minuscule is good!! Writing twelve "books" throughout the year 2014? That is living life while I am alive. I'm no quitter. I am a fighter. I'm a survivor. And I possess one long surgically-created C.D.H. scar across my abdomen as living proof. "It's a... terrible privilege.". Truly.     

So. Do you make New Year's Resolutions?

Break them? Or forget you ever even made any New Year's Resolutions? Well. This was God's 2013 New Year's Resolution for me. Find contentment where you are. True contentment. Smile more. Laugh more. For joy and happiness is a choice!! I am working on it.

God's 2014 New Year's Resolution for me? We shall have to wait and see....

Have a happy Thanksgiving!! Dear Blogging Friends. I am thankful for you and your encouraging comments!!