Beautifully Unique : I Am A Freak!!

Saturday, July 19, 2014

I Am A Freak!!

Blogging Friends.... This has easily been the busiest Summer of my Life {And I am not in any way, shape, or form, complaining!!} Every Tuesday, we have been watching my niece, "Amethyst"!! All. Day. Long!! And every Friday, we have had my ten-year old cousin. All. Day. Long!! So please pardon me for being a stranger to all of your Blogs!! I will return.... Eventually!! And please excuse Beautifully Unique's random posts of late!! I am working on a story about Rose!! Slowly but surely!! My Life right now has seemingly become a purpose-given combination of spending quality time with Rose, watching kids, and writing!! Love you later.

Taken from my Life Story!! Which was written in 2012 through 2013!!

I am a freak. This birth defected, learning disabled, weird and crazy freak!! Plus, I am an oddball, too!! I shall announce this "loud and proud", as that phrase goes. Yes, loud and proud. For I shall stand atop the balcony of some tall skyscraper. And scream. I!! AM!! A!! FREAK!! Because I am definitely not human!! And, that is okay. You know what? Society says "freak" as though it's a negative thing. Yes, negative. Oh, and you must automatically need therapy on account of being a freak!! I do not like that mindset. And, why is it, exactly, does society think of "weird" as being negative? Like "weird" is some fault or shortcoming. I do not like that mindset, either. For society has long-ago deemed anybody who is different--whether developmentally, physically, or both--as some "freak". Like they are an animal infected with rabies. But I think that the word freak (And weird!!) should be used only in positive ways. I am a freak. I am a freak!! Or, as my phrase goes, I'm Beautifully Unique. A Beautifully Unique freak. (Hey, it rhymes!! The poetess within me likes that!!)

Taken from my private Word document journal entry!! Which was--for the most part--written yesterday!!

Ever since I was a teenager, I've considered myself a freak. Inhuman. How so? I was born defected, with craniosynostosis/congenital diaphragmatic hernia/Wolff–Parkinson–White syndrome. I have, my entire Life, lived with premature short-term memory loss as though I'm some middle-aged person. I am a learning disabled individual. I'm "hard to kill", as that phrase goes. I am both physically and emotionally resilient. I'm a weird, crazy, misfit, outsider oddball. You know what? I have long felt like a mutant from X-Men. However. I am--throughout time--gradually gaining self-acceptance regarding my birth defects, premature short-term memory loss, learning disabilities, and being a weird, crazy, misfit, outsider oddball!! I. AM. A. FREAK!! And now? Thanks to folliculitis decalvans, I will possibly eventually look like a bald-headed freak with Frankenstein-like craniosynostosis scars. Bring it on!!

4 comments:

Unknown said...: Hi, Raelyn! Freaks like us make the world function. Copernicus was ridiculed because he knew that the solar system is heliocentric.; July 20, 2014 at 2:21 PM
Mary Lou said...: FlutistPride....
Thank-you for commenting, Friend!!
"Freaks like us make the world function. Copernicus was ridiculed because he knew that the solar system is heliocentric." Freaks like us make the world function!! I like that!! ;op; July 20, 2014 at 3:49 PM
Angry Girl Fitness said...: I'm so glad we found you again, my friend!!! You must follow our new blog so you can see what Rama has been up to! So much has changed! I can relate to much of what you are talking about with this post. Let your freak flag fly!!!! You are one of the coolest people we know!; July 20, 2014 at 5:49 PM
Mary Lou said...: Shannon....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
Well, hello there!! I am so very glad you found me!! I thought that perhaps your Blog was taken down forever!! ;)
"I can relate to much of what you are talking about with this post. Let your freak flag fly!!!! You are one of the coolest people we know!" Aw, thanks!! Let your freak flag fly!! I love that!! ;op; July 20, 2014 at 7:18 PM

"It's A... Terrible Privilege"

{Taken from "The Avengers"}
Tony Stark: You know, I've got a cluster of shrapnel, trying every second to crawl its way into my heart.
[Stark points at the mini-arc reactor in his chest]
Tony Stark: This stops it. This little circle of light. It's part of me now, not just armor. It's a... terrible privilege.
Bruce Banner: But you can control it.
Tony Stark: Because I learned how.
Bruce Banner: It's different.
[Banner tries to read the computer screen, but Stark slides the data aside with his finger so the two can see face-to-face]
Tony Stark: Hey, I've read all about your accident. That much gamma exposure should have killed you.
Bruce Banner: So you're saying that the Hulk... the other guy... saved my life? That's nice. It's a nice sentiment. Save it for... what?
Tony Stark: I guess we'll find out.
[Banner and Stark get back to work at their respective computers]
Bruce Banner: You might not enjoy that.
Tony Stark: You just might.

Raelyn:

I am a 31-year old American woman. I was born with multiple birth defects. Craniosynostosis. {I did not have any soft spots.} Congenital diaphragmatic hernia. {I had a hole in my diaphragm.} And Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome. {I had an irregular, rapid heartbeat.} All three birth defects have been surgically repaired!! I live with "developmental delays". Learning disabilities, if you will. Such as--unfortunately--premature short-term memory loss. Oh, and I have attention deficit disorder, as well!! I do not like to evade such an issue as my learning disabilities. No. It hurts sometimes to be different. I was also diagnosed with a condition called folliculitis decalvans. {I am more than likely going to lose my hair, go bald, and unveil twain Frankenstein-like surgically-created craniosynostosis scars. Permanently.} But God is gradually teaching me that we are all, as my phrase goes, Beautifully Unique!!