Not Right Now

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"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go." --Dr. Seuss

I have been doing lots of thinking plus some soul-searching regarding my future as an artist and a writer. Oh yes. And I have also created my fictional story for March!! Question. Should I become a self-published children's author? Or not? Truth be told? I have yet to Google-search the possibility. Why? Because I have been too busy weighing potential pros and cons. I do everything at my own pace, remember? Well. I could be wrong--I am often--but I've strongly felt God whisper in my heart and soul these very words.

Not right now.

Does this mean that I can't obtain my lifelong dream? Do I feel as though God is saying "no"? Quite the contrary.

Because "not right now" doesn't necessarily mean "never".

I feel as though God has been reminding me that I'm still an infant as a "children's writer". {That is my phrase, by the way!! Because "children's authors" are published. And I am not. So I'm a "children's writer"!!} I feel as though God has been reminding me that I'm still experimenting as an artist. And I always will!! I feel as though God has been reminding me that I'm still figuring out who I am as a writer. I feel as though God has been reminding me that I'm still blooming. After all. I have not even been creating fictional children's stories for one year yet!! And I feel as though God has been reminding me of my 2014 Resolution to write twelve "books" {No shortcuts allowed!!} in one year's time. Stick to the plan. It is only almost March. See. If I did pursue my dream of being a self-published children's author--and this will not occur overnight--would I create one "book" a month? I don't know. I discovered, after penning my Life Story, that I'm addicted to Writing Projects. Yes, addicted. Because first my crazy never-shuts-down head creates something beautiful. I feel as though I'm riding a high of some sort. Then it is over and I instantaneously want another Writing Project. Instantaneously. I am constantly finding myself excitedly anticipating the following month after each Writing Project!! That being mentioned. I am looking toward the future with optimistic hope!! What minor mood swing-infused pity parties? They are not nearly as frequent anymore!! Save a little self-pity every now and then over my learning disabilities. I am in an incredibly good, positive place of happiness because I'm regularly putting that crazy never-shuts-down head of mine "to work"!! So I need--yes, need--my monthly Writing Projects!! Because work is the best form of therapy for me!!

             

Not right now.

That isn't a negative answer. No. God is simply attempting to teach me contentment and patience on this insane journey called Life!! Bring it on!!