Blogging Friends.... I have been busy lately. Very, very, very
busy!! So, I cannot find the time to completely catch-up on everybody's
Blogs.... Because, believe me, I have tried!! {Oh, yeah. And I promise you some
Rose stories on this Blog about my dog!! Soon!!}
Update. In the other day's post, I confessed that I'm a chocolate
addict. Ten days have now passed by
since I quit my binging habit, and cut back drastically on sugar, as well. Ten long days. I do not miss the sugar. Honest,
I don't!! The chocolate? That is another story. I have freakin' chocolate
cravings daily. Daily!! They are
very, very, very strong. And, at this
point, I do not miss the jittery, edgy, hyperactive I-can-achieve-anything
surge of energetic high that a ton of chocolate gave me. How did I ever let my addiction get this
bad, I oft question? Now, lest anybody wonder. I am not, by any means at
all, chocolate-free!! Nor do I want
to be!! Because, one thing I have
learned during these past ten days, is this.
Life sans chocolate entirely?
Unimaginable!! Chocolate sweetens life
up!! However. I can count on one hand
how much chocolate I've indulged on since quitting my binging ways. Wow. As resulted, I have lost a little weight. But not nearly enough!!
Here is a Word Document journal/diary entry from Sunday, September 15th. I made
some changes, of course. Because, as
a writer, that is what I do!! Yeah. I double as an editor!!
Well, yesterday was my first cosmic test against temptation. Our preborn niece's baby shower. It was
arranged like a family birthday party. More
of these tests shall come, I'm sure!! For dinner, there were various chips to nosh on. And, I am also watching my junk food intake. Surprisingly, those chips actually did tempt
me a bit!! There were lots and lots of barbequed hamburgers. And hotdogs. I ate one juicy hamburger with nothing on but
mayonnaise!! Just the way I like it!! There was lemonade to drink. Plus
iced tea. I love lemonade!! But there
were also luscious strawberries
available, plus other fruits. I inhaled
those as if my life depended on it!!
I love, love, love strawberries!!
There was also baby carrots {plus
other vegetables} and buttermilk dip. I enjoyed some baby carrots, as well!!
Then dessert. It was not chocolate cake, as I had originally hoped for. However. After spending all morning battling strong feelings of withdrawal yesterday--like some demon--I was actually secretly relieved that there wasn't any chocolate cake!! Yes,
relieved. I wanted to raid Dairy Queen of every "Chocolate Lover's" Blizzard that day, they were such intense withdrawals!! Okay. Heaven
knows that I can be a jerk,
especially lately during strong chocolate withdrawals. Now. I think that it is
downright rude to attend someone's
party and not enjoy even a thin slice of homemade cake!! After all.
They did lovingly take the time to bake it!! So, after my oldest brother's best friend's wife lured
me toward the cake, I halfheartedly said this.
"You don't need to encourage me!!". Then. One thin slice was cut
for me!! Which felt weird to this
sugar-crazed girl!! I wanted a bigger
piece!! It was this made-from-scratch vanilla cake with blueberries layered
inside, where, usually, more frosting would be. Icing, plus sprinkles were on
top. Then. After arriving home that night, it felt weird, so weird, to not be on a sugar high. See. Usually, on days of birthday party-like events, I drink more than one Sprite. That is 38-plus grams of sugar freely being
poured into my system. And I eat way too
much cake, whether or not my taste buds even like it. Especially if
there's chocolate!! When I return home, it's usually late evening, and, by 10:00
PM, Parkinson is performing some sold-out concert within my chest. I think he must play for Bruce Springsteen!!
I possess a jittery, edgy, hyperactive I-can-achieve-anything surge of energy. Because. I. Am. High. Insane, I know. But last night? To the contrary!! I was actually exhausted, after a long day of resisting Dairy Queen chocolate
Blizzard robberies.
Now, enough about me!! One of my dear
sweet precious C.D.H. Buddies, Clay, is in serious
need of prayer right now.
It can be a congenital diaphragmatic hernia parent's worst, most darkest fear.
Reherniation. You already watched
your child battle for his/her little life, often
on the brink of death. So naturally.
Nothing comes even remotely close to
the thought of reliving that hell. Nothing.
But it can--and does--occur, as reherniation for a baby
born with C.D.H. are as high as 60%. Well, get this. Clay already reherinated. That's right. The
hard to kill little dude already put
his poor Mommy and Daddy through C.D.H.-related hell twice. Yesterday,
Clay's parents attended an appointment with surgeon Dr. D. to discuss what
could be causing their only son's ongoing vomiting problems. Some chest x-rays
later, Hannah and Eric were thrown an unexpected nasty curveball. Clay had reherinated. Again.
Apparently, the gortex patch which doctors made to "seal" Clay's hole
in his diaphragm {Mine was corrected by sutures. We think!!} during both
previous operations gave way right in
the middle of Clay's diaphragm, below his sternum. Now. Clay's g-tube is
working as somewhat of an "anchor" for his stomach, so it is only
partially elevated in Clay's chest cavity. However. They could visibly see stomach in Clay's chest based on the
x-rays. Like when my left lung collapsed, Clay has been acting as though nothing occurred and all of his organs
are where they belong. Pictures on their
Blog show a very happy boy!! Clay's breathing has not even been labored,
plus he's still ventilator and oxygen-free!!
Clay is scheduled for his C.D.H. repair surgery next week on Thursday,
September 26th. The hospital will not release Clay until one week's time. Please, please, please pray for Clay, Hannah, and Eric!!
Their Blog address is this. http://breathingforclay.blogspot.com/ . Be sure to swing on by,
and send your love for Clay!!
12 comments:
Hate to tell you...rub salt in your wounds, as it were...but, SHE doesn't like chocolate. But there's lots of other no-no things that trip HER up.
XXXOOO Daisy, Bella & roxy
A friend of mine used to replace her chocolate addiction with those low calorie sachets of hot chocolate. They aren't the same but it helps a bit.
Sounds like you had a great time at the baby shower with no temptations :)
My prayers are with little Clay.
Lynne x
Resisting temptation is never easy. A little at a time and onwards and upwards. We pray for Clay.
Have a wonderful Wednesday.
Best wishes Molly
Daisy, Bella & Roxy....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"Hate to tell you...rub salt in your wounds, as it were...but, SHE doesn't like chocolate.". You bragger!! ;op
Lynne....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
Yeah, I do not really like hot chocolate. Unless. I put a ton of extra chocolate in it!! Go figure!! ;)
I had a good time at the baby shower with --minimal-- temptations!! ;-D
Thanks for praying for Clay. Eric and Hannah will appreciate it!! ;op
Molly....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"Resisting temptation is never easy. A little at a time and onwards and upwards.". Thanks!! I should write that down somewhere!! ;)
Thanks for praying for Clay. Eric and Hannah will appreciate it!! ;op
So sorry for Clay and his family. A tough place to be for sure.
Way to go with cutting back on the chocolate. Most of the time it is more habit than need. Once you train your body and your mind, it becomes easier. It doesn't go away completely, but it doesn't seem so ever-present.
Ruby....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
I am so glad that you saw this post!! Pray for Clay, okay? He needs it. ;)
"Way to go with cutting back on the chocolate.". Thanks!! It has not been easy!! :-(
"Most of the time it is more habit than need. Once you train your body and your mind, it becomes easier. It doesn't go away completely, but it doesn't seem so ever-present.". Thanks for the encouragement, Friend!! I look forward to a time when my chocolate addiction becomes "more habit than need"!! Not there yet!! ;op
I will say a prayer for Clay and his family. I love chocolate and I know how hard it is to resist. You are doing great and good luck!
Anne and Sasha
Anne and Sasha....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"I love chocolate and I know how hard it is to resist. You are doing great and good luck!". Thanks!! I needed that encouragement!! ;)
Thanks for praying for Clay. Eric and Hannah will appreciate it!! ;op
It's a tough one alright. My spouse is a chocoholic and we make many trips to the local Dairy Queen for her "FIX."
troutbirder....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"It's a tough one alright. My spouse is a chocoholic and we make many trips to the local Dairy Queen for her 'FIX.'". I know how she feels!! And did I neglect to mention that Dairy Queen is within walking distance from our home?! ;op
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