Tuesday, April 15, 2014

"Did I Just Say That Out Loud?"

Blogging Friends.... Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for all of your encouraging comments on the other day's post!! I truly appreciated them. You, dear Friends, are such wonderful "support" to me, and I am such a pain in the ass!! Sorry about that. I AM a "published" writer!! I do not want to become one. I AM. By the way? Jezabelle does not only buck and attempt to throw me on account of my lifelong dream. It is other issues, as well. That was merely a true story example. My newfound mantra has become "Ride like the wind, Jezabelle." Love you later.

There is a small resin sign that looks like wood being sold at Hallmark. It states, in bold uppercase letters, these words. Did I Just Say That Out Loud? I've seriously considered purchasing it for my bedroom as a valid reminder that I can sometimes blurt things out {Often quirky!!} in a blunt, forward manner. But then. I would also have to purchase the matching small sign that reads this. OCD: Obsessive Chocolate Disorder, and those signs are not cheap. Anyway. I have worked on improving this character defect over the years. Honest!! Now, I am very good at keeping secrets. Baby news. Christmas surprises. Huge weighty subjects. And I tend to hold a lot inside me. A lot. So less than twain years ago when I learned about Robert Downey Jr.'s past {Has it really been that long? Wow.} I learned about all sorts of things, including--yes--some hard drugs. But being good at keeping secrets? I've never--never--let on to anybody everything that I know. Especially because my loving, non-controlling Mom did not wish for me to learn about Robert Downey Jr.'s past at all. Would everything that I have knowledge of break her heart? I can't help but wonder. So I have held everything inside me. Until Saturday, April 5th, 2014, when we were eating homemade pizza dinner with a friend. Suddenly, he--who shall remain nameless!!--randomly mentioned the term "smoking rock". This friend then looked directly at me and gently said something to this effect. "That was meant for your Dad. I don't expect you to get it. Sorry." But. I did get that reference!! Then suddenly, sans warning, I spoke up. "Oh, I know what 'smoking rock' means," I said, "I'm a Robert Downey Jr. fanatic, so I kinda have to." That was blunt. Way too blunt. And it lacked a little thing called "empathy". Whoops. My heart raced. Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump. It was jamming away for Bruce Springsteen's band when I felt immensely guilty, as though, I, myself, had got caught smoking cigarettes behind our green backyard shed. Did I just say that out loud? This shocked the pants off of my Dad. Because why should I--a sheltered homeschooled graduate--know anything about smoking rock? He then turned to my Mom and asked this. "You let her read that?" And my Mom--equally shocked--answered with this. "She's--how old are you?" Thirty. Although I was twenty-eight years old when I learned about Robert Downey Jr.'s past. And you know what? I am also educated on how cocaine abuse can mess with an addict's head. Facts which I shall spare you of. Your welcome. I shall also spare you the specific Robert Downey Jr. quotation from which I became familiar with the term "smoking rock". Because he said four f-bombs--I counted them--plus it was a hauntingly sad, surreal glimpse into one ex-addict's life of being desperate for coke. Your welcome again. I then went on and painted Robert Downey Jr. in a truthful, real, positive light to our friend. Such as this. Robert Downey Jr. spent his 49th birthday with elementary-aged kids and watched "Captain America: The Winter Soldier". I will never tire of doing that. Painting Robert Downey Jr. in a positive light. Why? Because he is--and I believe always was!!--a good guy. My how far Robert Downey Jr. has travelled in Life. From smoking rock {And tons of it} to watching "Captain America" with kids who idolize him as Tony Stark/Iron Man. It is nothing short of beautiful.      








8 comments:

Molly The Wally said...

F bombs you crack us up. Smoking rock??? Well we have never heard that one but we assumed it was to do with illegal substances. Have a wonderful Wednesday.
Best wishes Molly

Raelyn said...

Molly....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"Smoking rock??? Well we have never heard that one but we assumed it was to do with illegal substances.". And you would be correct. Do not worry about it, though. You don't need to get the reference "smoking rock". Trust me on that one!! ;op

Sketching with Dogs said...

When you get to 30 your're allowed to read about smoking rock - you won't believe what you're allowed to do when you're 40 :)
Lynne x

Raelyn said...

Lynne....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"When you get to 30 you're allowed to read about smoking rock - you won't believe what you're allowed to do when you're 40". THANK-you!! I shall remember that!! ;op

Ryker said...

Just goes to show you it's never to late to change!

Raelyn said...

Ryker....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"Just goes to show you it's never too late to change!". That's right!! I actually have a picture of Robert Downey Jr. smiling his attractive wrinkled-face smile with these words. "Living proof - it's never too late... to get sober". LIVING proof. ;op

margeaux said...

excellant!! I too feel that RD J's past is simply that~a past. He is an extremely talented man- and as we know that kind of talent is always "touched by fire" of some kind, usually an addiction or neurosis. The other artist I admire who has had her past is Drew Barrymore. Both is these wonderful people have taken their lives in hand and balanced it beautifully. Not sure why you feel you need to hide your "intellectual knowledge" of an admired person of notoriety. :) hugs! M

Raelyn said...

M....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"I too feel that RDJ's past is simply that~ a past. He is an extremely talented man- and as we know that kind of talent is always 'touched by fire' of some kind, usually an addiction or neurosis." Very well expressed!! And so true!! ;)
"The other artist I admire who has had her past is Drew Barrymore. Both of these wonderful people have taken their lives in hand and balanced it beautifully." Yes!! And Drew Barrymore is currently expecting Baby number two!! ;-D
"Not sure why you feel you need to hide your 'intellectual knowledge' of an admired person of notoriety." Me either!! Do you care to know of any other dangerously addictive hard drugs I know about because of RDJ?! In his own defense. RDJ has also taught me tons of POSITIVE things, as well!! ;op