Friday, May 9, 2014

Kick It Back Right In The Face

Blogging Friends.... Well, now isn't Life ironic? I wrote this awhile back with the intention of posting it today. Then yesterday we talked with Grandma--who is visiting from California--about somebody who I am in close proximity to attending college and how I'd struggled with feeling as though my Life lacked purpose. And the fact that I felt like a failure.... Even though I'm not. Here's the thing. I still struggle with this. Feeling Jezabelle wildly bucking, I held on tight to her leather reins. But she threw me anyway, as per usual. I stood up from our great room table, walked to my bedroom, closed the door and hot tears freely streamed down my face. Why is it that the only twain aspirations I have ever dreamed of {Motherhood and being an author} are unobtainable?! The reality that I cannot throw any prolonged minor mood swing-infused pity parties because of Grandma's visit helped me find my sanity. I had to let it go. Again. And this following Robert Downey Jr. quotation saved my sanity as well. I remounted Jezabelle's saddle. I am in a good place.... Happy. Love you later.
      
I have been absent from reading/commenting on all of your Blogs. Because. I have been waking up very early to write. Spending quality time with my brother Michael. Stroking Rose's velvet-soft fur. And visiting with Grandma. I miss you all terribly!! I hope that Life has been well. Please do not forget about me!!

 When life is kicking your butt, never forget to kick it back right in the face. --Robert Downey Jr., Kid's Choice Awards, 2014

I can't become a published author. Yet I have continued to write books. I should not become a published author, because I'm somewhat insane and my monthly Writing Projects are the superglue which holds me together emotionally/mentally. Yet I have continued to create books. And. According to so many people {Family, Blogging Friends, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera} I am "published". Because I write on Beautifully Unique. Not to mention, Minuscule is good! . And I just wrote my tenth book in less than twain years!! Now that is something to be proud of!! I mean, come on. It is a testament of my resilience and perseverance!! Besides. How many published authors--whose works of literature are being sold at Barnes & Noble--can say that they have written ten books in less than twain years?! Huh? They cannot!! Ten books in less than twain years. You know what? That is, I think, a true definition of insanity!! And it's proof that I have never stopped writing. I have never stopped creating fictional stories!! 

When life is kicking your butt, never forget to kick it back right in the face. --Robert Downey Jr., Kid's Choice Awards, 2014

Thank-you, Robert!! That describes exactly what I feel like I've done within less than twain years time. Life has kicked my butt. In more ways than one. I mean. I was born with craniosynostosis, congenital diaphragmatic hernia, and Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome. I live with premature short-term memory loss. An unwanted learning disability. And I can't--should not--see any of my fictional stories be sold at bookstores. Yet. It truly feels as though I am kicking Life back right in the face!! With each and every fictional book I create!! "Monkeys in the Woods". {September} "Bubbles the Bubblegum Bunny". {October} "Thanksgiving with the Pilgrims". {November} "A Very Important Visitor". {December} "The Star". {January} "Made For Each Other". {February} "Everybody is Irish on St. Patrick's Day". {March} "The Case of the Mysterious Easter Eggs". {April} "The Lost Cat". {May} Yes, I have continued writing books!! Yeah. I've definitely kicked Life back right in the face!! And it feels so freakin' good!! Yes, I am hooked on kicking Life back in the face, addicted to Writing Projects!! And recently, I was given an idea.
When life is kicking your butt, never forget to kick it back right in the face. --Robert Downey Jr., Kid's Choice Awards, 2014

This is my newfound Life Philosophy. And it was spoken from a martial artist!! Cool.

Dear Blogging Friends. Has Life kicked your butt? In what ways? And how are you kicking it back right in the face? Do tell.








2 comments:

Molly The Wally said...

No real way of fighting back here just got to keep the faith we say. You never know what is round the corner so keep those dreams alive and where there is a will there is hope. Have a super Saturday.
Best wishes Molly

Raelyn said...

Molly....
Thank-you for the comment, Friend!!
"No real way of fighting back here just got to keep the faith we say. You never know what is round the corner so keep those dreams alive and where there is a will there is hope." That is good!! ;op