Monday, March 21, 2011

Finding Contentment

Whatever possesses people to adopt canines? Is it loneliness? An ever growing need for companionship? Is it love? A wishing for warm, friendly greetings at the end of each day? Is it homestead protection? Because that giant-sized breed will someday confidently guard his owners during a house robbery? Or is it an utter passion toward these beautiful four-legged creatures? For me, personally? I have never conceived any children, although becoming a mother has long been an aspiration of mine. Ever since I was little, plush baby dolls were my "offspring". I named them Nicole Jane, Amanda, or Rachel. My imagination ran wild!! I "mothered" twins, triplets, even quintuplets!! They ranged from infants, to five-year olds. Eventually, I grew up and put all those baby dolls away. But I was the girl who decided years ago to give each of my children Bible names!! I was the girl who verbally declared that Christmas carols would be sung as babies were snuggled near me!! For I always wanted kids!! I continuously daydreamed about children. Frequently spoke of children. Often thought about children. I've found difficulty finding contentment throughout the years. This feeling of sunken dreams.... Owning a dog allows myself abundant opportunities to exercise real maternal instincts!! It provides me with continuous reasons for employing nurture!! Owning a canine means I am needed in this existence. Some helpless beast depends on me for nourishment, fresh clean water, attention!! Now dogs are not kids. Training one isn't the same as childrearing!! But owning Rose will most likely eternally be the closest thing I'll ever get to motherhood!! Therefore, I vow.... I'll always attend her needs with smiles and a positive attitude.... Even at 3AM!! I will habitually greet Rose daily with our bright, cheerful "Good Morning Beautiful"!! phrase. I promise to laugh often, remember patience, and relax. I will sing her Christmas carols!! I hope to be the best Mama that Rose has ever had!! For alongside my mongrel I am finding contentment....

2 comments:

Ruby said...

Oh, how sweet! Yes, contentment is so crucial to living a joyful, peaceful life. I am glad God is using Rose to help you be content. And, you are needed and loved by more than just Rose! All five of us in this house love you to pieces!!!!!

Raelyn said...

Oh, Ruby, you are so sweet!! I truly have no clue how on earth we got along in this world without knowing your family!! We are blessed, indeed....